Sunday, December 12, 2010

It's December, Next Comes January By Wafaa


When the traditional fuss starts over the year’s last month, the exile I feel glitters the most. A few passing years have been deficient in fervor which used to mesmerize me by the end of each year. It bugs, being aware of it but unable to change it. New dreams mourn their lack of ambitions; new hopes suffer a dearth of igniting sparks. I miss smiles that once reflected deep relief. I miss spirits that once scattered warmth through the coldest days. I miss promising eyes that once sparkled among the darkest ways. I miss me –a while ago- when my determination shaded a tough reality. I miss my homeland, my grandma’s house, my family gatherings, my friends’ gossip, and the listing is infinite. So another year is about to set off, but despite the commotion that fills the universe with colorful images and joyful sounds, it still feels gloomy and stagnant. For me, this time of year, with the auspicious optimism it is supposed to convey, has lost its individuality between others. Years pass by as if they haven't; no remarkable significance or development indicates their existence. I am more cognizant but less certain. I am more mature but less content. As I grow a year older, my hopes and expectations grow a year ashier. Years have had their mark on my age, my awareness, my maturity, but not on the concept I chose to live; hopefully, it will be actualized one day. I wish the dictator be cured, and the tyrannized be rescued. I wish the agonized attains ease, and the expatriate finds home. I wish morals exceed materialism. I wish love heals what abuse shatters. I wish peace pervades spirits, and unites the world to one nation; a populace believing in equality, respecting freedom of mind, and appreciating the reward of living.

** May This Month Apprise of a Blessed New Year *
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Thursday, December 09, 2010

Words from Billy Elliot

Dear Billy,
I know I must seem a distant memory to you, which is probably a good thing. It will have been a long time, and I missed seeing you grow.Missed you crying, laughing and studying.
I will have missed telling you off.But please know that I was always there with you through everything. I always will be, and I'm proud to have known you...and I am proud that you are mine.
Always be yourself....I'll love you forever.
Mom

Thursday, November 25, 2010

A bullet

I need a brush to paint a smile on their sad faces.

I need a fast car to escape my desires.

I need a bully to remind me of my childhood.

I need a halo so I can look better in photos.

I need some attention to keep stabilizing my ego.

I need anarchy to revolt against my anger’s authority.

I need a bullet to shoot the evil that strangled my innocence.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Thinking loud


Why do I have to carry that cross? What about some “Simon” to help me on the way?

It bugs, it burns when Michael doesn’t stand for his beliefs.

“I will save the world”, what a joke. I can’t even save myself.

I’ve made 10 rounds around the sun, but it feels cold.

I doubt the rules of my physics: Mike has much potential, but null Kinetic.

Once upon a time there was an idea, a gift free Christmas and… “Much fuss about nothing”…..The end L

Giving a hug can sometimes turns out to be a painful experience, is that normal?

I don’t regret wasting some time watching “Jamie Oliver”.

I think Jesus won’t make it this year; there are too many boxes blocking his way.

Wednesday, November 03, 2010

I asked Wafaa and she answered:


A friend asked me the other day if I sometimes wonder about the reason of my living. I have to admit he chose a perfect timing. With everything circulating, I was dreadfully searching the answer to that. Well my friend, every time my circumstances rule, that question troubles my mind. Every time despair imbues my whole being, I think of it. Many times I have slipped down to the fisrt step of the ladder that took me ages to scramble in seconds. I find myself starting from naught again - blowing away my dreams and collecting the wrecks to start building new ones. And then, endless thoughts invade me; I even doubt if it is worth trying at all. If chances have ever failed you repeatedly when you needed them the most, you would know what I mean. I usually believe there must be an ingress behind which hope is waiting, but this belief is shaken on such times. You might judge it a pessimistic attitude, but I can do nothing about it; not as long as the world moves on while I am stuck inside a loop, stupidly moving on a track with no shifts. To say the truth, I am exhausted; I am sick of giving up my dreams and expectations again and again. I wish you have given me the answer instead my friend, because up to this moment, I fall flat finding it.