Childhood is a package of morals- twisted or straight. Religious education and stories, school education, self esteem studies, complex psychological growth full of hesitation, opinion and decision, suppression, etc…all lead to form what we call character. During youth, such elements are put into action and are enhanced with time; in addition, swinging confidence enriches lacking the ability to decide or being afraid of stepping further, as if one does not have the right to. And who the hell decides what my rights are? My society, my family, who?
Now as a grown up, I-with widely open eyes- raise a lot of questions in a new society and culture in an attempt to find myself.
As for the society, it is titled by: “keep your morals to portrait and seek the power to keep on growing”. This what makes one respected. The power is the scale. By default, I love knowledge and studying. To people and society, this is the power even though my scale is morals. With a childhood package as mine, I still can’t decide. I feel I have to do what they want before doing what I want. So with my passion to knowledge, I find myself connecting both: using my educational status and family pushes to what they want, to finally build my shield and achieve my own goals.
Eventually, everything seems to work in harmony, even though it may take a life time. It turns out that things always happen for a good reason and what is impossible in the present become definite in the future.